Commitment

Five minutes a day to start for 30 days. Now I am on day 13. Interestingly, I am only doing five minutes a day of writing in January. Still, each day I have felt more resistance to writing and a tiny amount of stress as I thought about keeping my commitment to myself and the promise I made. It’s only five minutes. So the passage of time isn’t producing stress. Or is it? Is it the activity itself? Or is it the commitment? I can’t be afraid of the time. I am not afraid of writing. Each day I participate in longer activities. Each day I write. I am boiling down that my fear is coming from this. My slow-growing fear and anxiety are around the possibility of not meeting my commitment and breaking my promise to myself. Tomorrow I will acknowledge my fear. I will articulate to myself that I got this. I got you. No need to fear and no need to worry. Then I will keep my commitments to myself, goals, and progress